The first cut is the deepest

You never know how much time it costs to get over someone.

You never knew which impact you had on me. In fact, you didn't knew how it felt, so you underestimated my feelings. Sometimes I think you have to know how I felt then, how I feel right now...

But I don't tell you anything. I try to avoid any conversation with you, just because I know I would feel terrible if you would be nice to me, or if you would say something I don't want to hear, of if you just would smile at me, or...